Drowning

​Hi Momma,

I am starting to lose all kinds of hope. Hope for Alex to have a job with Guthrie (or anything really as only I have been applying to them for him). To pay my car payment, to get groceries for us, there’s nothing… I have no way to do anything. Especially groceries. I look up at the sky and the universe looks pretty with the sunbeams coming down. But I have lost all hope from the spirits, from family… its none of their fault. But I am drowning pretty bad and don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel at all.